Blessings&Curses

It's funny, cause at church I'll talk about how we need to love our enemies, how harmful gossip is and how people watch how Christians treat people.

Then at school, all I do is say mean things about a girl who used to be my friend. Before that, all I'd do is say mean things about a guy who used to be my friend. In fact, our little group had a whole night dedicated to talking about how horrible he is.

Oh, wait, that's not funny at all.

Blessings&Curses coming from the same mouth. Fresh and salt water. I praise the Lord with my mouth (at church) and then go to school and curse people who still have value to God with my friends.

So I'm posting this as a kind of reminder to myself. Katie is valuable to God. He loves her, he wants her to turn to him. He died for her, too. John is valuable to God. He loves him, he wants him to turn to him, and he died for him, too. I am valuable to God, even though I've been acting pretty lousy lately.

and probably the worst thing about it is, every time i make a comment about Katie or John, I KNOW I shouldn't. But when my friends are facing me, laughing, I'm a coward.

This will not do.