Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

One of my best friends has been purging, and i blame myself. If I didn't judge myself so harsley around her, maybe she wouldn't have the standard she does. Or if she didn't see how much thinner I became when I was bulimic, she wouldn't bother to try it. She told me she'd only just started, only done it a few times, but that's complete bs and i can tell.

You know what's even worse? I find this out 2 days after I realize that making a mistake a couple weeks ago doesn't mean there's something wrong with me. I come to terms with my mistake and then boom, my best friend is headed toward the path i just struggled back from.

Now, I feel like I have to compete with her. I can't be fatter than her.

But i found out today that most of the calories you eat are absorbed before they reach the stomach. Purging only gets rid of about 20% of the calories you eat.

Yep.

- Liane.