But oh, those summer nights

In the times of deepest confusion and endless scenario-making, God really does come through. Even if it's in the simple form of a conversation with a friend, it's incredible.

Last night, this boy I know from youth group invited me to a Bible study at his church. As much as I'd like to say I thought "Bible study?! Heck yes I'm there!" that wasn't the only factor influencing my decision to go. Now, I didn't quite have a crush on him, I wasn't hoping for a relationship or any of that, but I knew those ideas were forming quickly in the back of my mind as we began to hang out more.

The Bible study was great. We had pizza and soda first, then the guys all played basketball while I watched (a certain boy hadn't told me to bring sneakers). After that, we had worship outside at about 7:45, right before the sky would turn yellow and the sun would set. We sang so many songs about joy, and I remembered that I am NOT bound by my sin. Afterward, we broke off into groups, basically adults, kids, and youth. The youth had a surprisingly theological discussion considering there were younger teens, and I didn't feel afraid to speak up.

After the Bible study ended and people began to leave, I told Joe that I should probably get going. I live about 40 minutes away from the church and it was already 9:20. He told me no, just let me practice a song with the guys real quick, stick around. So I did. I was standing in the hall reading, when he comes back out with an expression that's hard to read. It was a "Can we talk outside?"

So we sit down, and I'm freaking out, wondering if something was wrong, if I didn't do something right, whatever. And he tells me "I don't know where you are with anything, but I want to let you know that I'm not looking for a relationship and I just want to be friends."

Apparantly, Joe and I have been a bit flirtatious lately. I don't think it was overboard or anything, but I can see where people would say that. Now, this didn't sit well with Joe's ex girlfriend (of 3 times), who also happens to be my friend. At her birthday party, 2 days before, she pulled him aside and lectured him about leading people on, wouldn't listen to anything he said, etc. But in fairness, she wasn't the only one who said anything.

So that was definitely a relief, especially because of a lot of other stuff going on in my life right now. In fact, we started talking about all the other stuff going on, in both of our lives, and didn't STOP talking until 11:50. We talked about everything, basically, and as romantic as it could have been, I'm glad it wasn't. Like I said, there's too much going on.

God comes through. When you're confused and worried and don't know how you should feel, He's got your back. Last night was wonderful.