Just kidding, guys. But not really.

"You're not really fat . . . yet."

Megan, if you'd like to go punch your brother for me, I'd really appreciate it. He wasn't serious or anything, but still. It's one of those things you laugh off and pretend it didn't bother you, and then think about all day.

I was screaming under my breath: you are the only thing that makes sense.

God, give me strength to make the right decision.

Miserable

Another one of my friend's husbands just cheated on her. She miscarried her baby less than a month ago and now they're probably getting a divorce.

10 days after I turned 8, got my lips stuck in a gate

I want to break up with my boyfriend.

My Zeilenople boyfriend, that is. He totally didn't invite me to Homecoming! Megs thinks I should give it another year. psh whatever.

In other news, sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so people would get the heck off my back. Just something big enough to put me in the hospital for like a day, cause I'm really sick of being blamed for everything. That sounds a lot worse than it is, really, I just feel like Ralphie on A Christmas Story, when he's fantasizing about being blind to make his parents sorry. It's no more than that.

My little sister only treats me with respect when she gets what she wants. She's 15, but I think I've met more selfless 5-year-olds. I'm paying $100 for her to go on a retreat for youth group, and I gave her $40 today so she can go to the fair. My parents are kind of in a tough spot right now, so I wanted to help. $140 doesn't sound like much, but when you only make about $80 a week, it's quite enough. She gave me a big smile and a hug and told me how wonderful I am when I said I'd give her money for the fair. However, when I told her she wouldn't have time to blow dry her hair because I had to be back home in an hour (oh yeah, i forgot to add that she expected me to drive her, too) she completely changed her attitude and started yelling at me and complaining.

Whatever, it's shower time :]

once again.

i don't understand how a guy can hit on you and hit on you and admit they're hitting on you and make it really obvious and THEN

before he leaves he says, "ok i'm drawing the line at friends."

whaaaaat?!?

"because i've been hurt too many times in high school and i don't want a girlfriend in college at least until third quarter."


haha. funneh.


(oh and i apologize for swearing in ocg. !!! i feel bad.)

throw rocks at them.

there's something in the water. guys are being like that to me too.

like it's some kindof fucking game, and once you sucker me you've won, and you don't need me anymore.

it makes me want to vomit.

i feel like a loser.

Girls don't like boys

Today, it seems as if every male I've come in contact with, whether in person or even online, is being a douchebag.

It's been a year and a week since my dad got so upset he left for a few hours. Today he was only gone for an hour, but I'm still really upset.

Robbie's being a douche, Alex is being a douche, Ted is being a douche.. I don't know what the heck is up. I don't like it.

I'll have a blue Christmas without you

I don't think I'll be able to afford to go home for Christmas. Maybe I'll charge it, so I can see my parents one last time before becoming a mother myself.

if i forget you

i fucking hate college. i want to go home. i don't want my life to move forward or progress, i want it to stay exactly as it was the end of this summer.

that is so awful..but it's how i feel right now.

i'm so tired of hardly knowing anyone and feeling so utterly alone.

i can't even listen to music without it reminding me of what i have left behind.