Happy thanksgiving.

A brief candle; both ends burning

An endless mile; a bus wheel turning

A friend to share the lonesome times

A handshake and a sip of wine

So say it loud and let it ring

We are all a part of everything

The future, present and the past

Fly on proud birdYou're free at last.

-charlie daniels

Today at lunch one of my good friends found out her boyfriend had killed himself last night. I was there when she found out. I'd only met him twice, but wow. It was very much unexpected. I'm in shock. I was over at her house for a while today.

Keep his family in your prayers? His sister died only a year ago of a meth overdose. That has to be SO hard to deal with.. 2 kids in a year.

Yeah.

ETA: I need to go talk to God. But I'm scared to, cause I haven't in what feels like ages. And I don't want another stupid week-long high where I'm super-spiritual and then I just..die, and conciously refuse to think of God. Fear of doing that keeps me from God. It's silly, and I can't stop crying. I want to get out of here.