Growing up

I don't think being married will really make you grow up faster, but I know that it changes you, just as becoming a parent changes you again in ways you never felt possible.

A month ago I felt the same way I felt on my wedding day: young, carefree, happy, content.

But nothing can prepare you for how much you will worry about your child. I never understood why my mom used to come check on me in the middle of the night to see if I was still alive, or how people could spend hours just staring at their babies. There is something internally that just explodes, like, my life is no longer my own. My life is now to take care of his life, and it's scary, and weird, and there are so many things that I don't know yet.