Fool me once

I know I'm not the first person to be lied to. I'm not the first person to be cheated on.

But it seems like a pain that nobody could ever understand. Like a major part of who I am has been ripped from me without warning. I feel like I don't even know who I am, even though I know I'm still me.

I don't know how long it will take for me to get over this. It feels like it'll be forever. I hope it's not. I want it to be better.

It would be so easy to say, 'oh he's just a jerk and a loser and you deserve better.' But that's not true. I want to badly to believe it was a mistake - even if it was a 7-month mistake. I don't want to be angry at him. I want everything to be normal and okay, but I will never have that same relationship with him ever again.

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. I guess that makes me an idiot.