rambling

I've been made fun of a bit for never having been kissed. People tell me to kiss some random guy, because the "first one is never good." Others tell me to kiss someone that really means something to me. I want my first kiss to be meaningful. I don't want it to be some drunken accident.

So many people are interested in hooking up here. I don't see it, and I don't understand. I've never really dated, and I don't really want to, because I know it's not what I want. I know I'm young, and people will be all over it and snippy, but I'm a marriage minded woman. That's what I want. I have a solid idea of what God wants me to do so far in my life, and I know that somewhere out there is the man I'm meant to marry. And the thing is, I don't want to have a bunch of guys around me before that. I want to find the one I'm supposed to have.

Am I so wrong?