Hindsight

I am amazed at how far I've come since August. God is faithful, and it amazes me how He keeps His promises even when we're at our worst. It's so true that God is close to the broken-hearted . . . I didn't see God in August. I struggled so much in the first couple weeks because I couldn't find God at this Christian school. I wasn't being honest with God, though. I was pretending to understand everything He was doing and pretending to be okay with it - I wasn't okay at all. I was mad.

In August, I was dependent, needy, weak, broken, hurt, angry, confused. I was depressed. I was scared.

I don't have it all together now. But the Lord has done an incredible work in my life in these few short months, and it's incredible to look back and see from how far I've come. I'm learning and growing and meeting God in new places. I'm remembering His faithfulness and seeing His work in hindsight, and it just makes me smile

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.


Sometimes it amazes me how when I'm really just in close relationship to God, He changes the desires of my heart. When I'm not seeking God, I desire sin. When I am seeking God, I desire righteousness. And when I'm like..outside the will of God, I don't want to be inside it. But when everything is right between me and the Lord, it's amazing.

Life is good. God is good.