remember back in the day when we wrote about boiz?

ok that's good because i can't sleep otherwise.

boy i've known for years but never got along with well has returned to my life after 2 years of separation following high school graduation. now he's nice and we..get along well. so much so that's he's shown some romantic interest in me that i was trying hard not to read into in fear of it not really being there, or him changing his mind as a lot of guys like to do.

being the valiant guy he is he decides to confront me about it on aim in a joking manner, something like "hahaha i think you wanted me to put my arm around you the other night lawl" and eventually this evolves into us talking about the concept of 'us' and why i can't trust him yet and how he wants me to come over but maybe we should just be 'cool friends' because he doesn't want to do something stupid to make me hate him after we're finally on good terms.

i don't know. where are all the cute christian boys. where are all the boys that live where i go to school. why do they only pop up when i come home. hello, i've lived here 9 years and nothing. i come home for 3 months and now? nice timing.

i dig being single but i'm getting lonelier as the summer progresses. not even lonely for someone, but lonely for things to do or fellowship or old friends or home as i knew it. lonely for the times when i could listen to those cds the whole way through instead of pressing skip during the parts that cause good but painful feelings to resurface.